Sunday, February 22, 2009 @ 10:11 AM
Chapter 25: Understanding OneselfSuggested song/music: This is Love - Utada Hikaru
(http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mj0jaVZ43Gk)
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Finally finishing his presentation, Junsu flashed a confident smile at the lecturer and the class. The lecturer held a grim face and walked up the aisle slowly. “This project might be deemed as childish, My Precious might be far too ‘not your age’ for you guys. However, this project will tell you what is most important to you. You need to understand yourself in order to complete this project. And by understanding yourself, you will then also know what you want in life. Our classmate has displayed his understanding of himself very clearly. Well done.” the lecturer motioned for the class to clap and a round of applause broke out immediately. A sense of accomplishment building within him, Junsu silently thanked Li Yin for his successful presentation.
“Hankyung, promise me that you’ll give Zhang Xiong a job as a cleaner at the company.” Li Yin requested at Hankyung who just made his way into her ward. “No matter what he has done, he did raise me up. And if he hadn’t push me onto the road, I wouldn’t have found my real family.” Hankyung looked at Li Yin who had her side facing him. He knew exactly what is going on in her mind. She couldn’t let go of Zhang Xiong, despite how badly he had treated her over the years. She still regarded him as a father. She can deny it, but she cannot hide it from him. Knowing that she hasn’t completely changed herself, Hankyung felt slight relief running through him.
As soon as lessons ended, Junsu rushed out of the classroom to call Li Yin. He finally decided that it’s time to face her. Punching in the numbers quickly, he brought the phone to his ear. “Pick up the phone, pick up the phone!” he chanted as he dumped his books into the locker. “Sorry, but the number you have dialed does not exist. Please check that you have dialed the correct number or-”
“Does not exist?! Has Li Yin changed her number? Can’t be… I’ll call Yoochun.” Junsu ripped the phone from his ear and dialed for his buddy instead. As soon as the call was put through, Yoochun bombed him with a wave of vulgarities and questions. “Wait, hold on! Who did you say has died?”
“Zhang Li Yin! Your girl, Zhang Li Yin! She died the very same day you went to U.S, you bastard!”
Junsu wandered about the school restlessly. He had indirectly caused Li Yin’s death. That call he received from Li Yin that day was probably a call she struggled to make. That’s why she sounded so weak. “She’s dying! And I told her such harsh words. I told her a lie…” Junsu mumbled. “Li Yin can’t possibly leave me… just when I’ve finally understood what I want, I find that the person I want most is gone. How ironic. Fate, are you playing with me?!” Junsu shouted out of the window in the corridor. His shout attracted stares from other students, but he didn’t care. Nothing carried as much weight as Li Yin’s death. Seeing Junsu acting this way for the first time, even his little ‘fan club’ members does not dare to approach him with their self-packed lunches as usual. Trailing behind Junsu, they can only acknowledge the fact that he is feeling upset, but is unable to lessen the sadness he is feeling.
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I did not play with you. Everyone has believed in the little lie Zhang Li Yin - or should I say, Jang Ri In - woven. Anyway, how long are you planning to keep this up, Ri In? As I’ve said before, a relationship built on lies will never work. Your lie will eventually be seen through too. What will the outcome be then? Are you really helping yourself, or destroying yourself?
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Sitting crossed-legged on the couch, Li Yin tenderly applied super glue onto the hairclip she is holding onto. Blowing at it a couple of times, she positioned the clown on the hairclip and applied pressure. “Sorry I neglected you, Mr Clown. I should’ve known better than to believe in love… a clown like me, similar to you, my love is destined to be a sad love…
“What’s the use of calling only after she’s gone?” Ye Seul snapped when Yoochun told her about Junsu’s call. Shaking his head, Yoochun placed a comforting arm around Ye Seul. “But it’s better late than never, isn’t it? At first I thought he was heartless. I was even ready to hate him for the rest of my life despite being buddies with him for… well, almost my whole life.” Ye Seul pushed Yoochun’s hand away and stood up to pour herself a glass of wine. “Still, he left her when she needed him most. That’s unforgivable.”
“Seul…” looking at Ye Seul’s angry features, Yoochun sighed. Junsu is his buddy, and Ye Seul is his fiancée. Regardless of who he sides with, one is bound to get hurt.
“Li Yin… Li Yin…” Junsu mumbled as he sat down on one of the benches in the school’s lounge. His little fan club tailed behind him closely, wondering who on Earth is the ‘Li Yin’ he keeps chanting.
“That’s it! I had enough!” the girl which seems to be their leader stood up from their hiding spot. “I’m going over to ask him! Junsu’s a nice guy, he’ll tell.” before the other girls could stop her, she stomped over to Junsu and sat beside him. Scooting closer and closer, she started to eye Junsu. ‘Perfect side view! Oh my gosh… flawless face, handsome and charming features…’ the girls who were still in hiding started to hiss, bringing her back into reality. “Jun- Junsu. Are you talking to yourself?” she asked cautiously. Junsu looked up at her sadly. All of a sudden, he pulled her into a tight embrace, causing the other girls to gasp and squeal in astonishment…
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